My Spiritual Journey, Chapter 1

I have talked with my husband about blogging for about the past 6 months.  Can you say procrastination?  I kept waiting to reach enlightenment, become more wise, have more to share, find my "true" voice, have my house more organized, become a real writer, be a better mother and wife, be more compassionate, heal my son, toilet train my son, hear someone say "Kim, why don't you write a blog?", etc.  No kidding, these were all of my reasons for not doing what I knew I deeply wanted to do!  Ego, ego, ego!  

Yet, today I read some of Bea Johnson's blog about Zero Waste Living (zerowastehome.blogspot.com) and had an AHA! moment:)  Why not share my journey to enlightenment?  After all, that's what Bea was doing with her topic.  Thank you, Bea!  Side note:  I was also inspired to work toward eliminating material waste!  So, here I am working toward letting go of anything that no longer serves a purpose in my life...physically, mentally, spiritually and sharing it with you as openly and honestly as I can.  Join me and together we will find our way home!

Before I sign off for the day, I want to share a little about my journey thus far.  I will try to keep it brief , because trust me, I have accumulated a lot of journey in my 45 years!  

• Until I was 4, I saw and talked with my two angels.
• I had several traumatizing events beginning when I was about 2 leading me to have a death and rebirth experience. 
• I made a conscious decision to live a spiritual life as a mother instead of as a nun or priest (girls couldn't be priests anyway) when I was 8.
• I started reading the Zen books on the library shelf near my study spot and thought they made sense and realized that I was no longer Catholic...I was spiritual.
• I saw my first born and after 9 months of worrying if I would love her, thought, "I know you!" when I was 23.
• I buried my beloved brother, Todd, and briefly joined Eckankar to escape the pain and learned about the power of sound.
• I spent 7 years (off and on, give or take) in therapy with a wonderful therapist, Deborah, and learned how to turn my trauma into grist for my spiritual mill.
• When I held my last born, I felt peace and knew that even though a lot was wrong with him (CHARGE syndrome) everything would be OK.  I was 36.
• While I was out running near a local river and canal, God told me to pick up the feather I saw and throw it in the river.  I learned that I would never be "mainstream".
• I knew I found my soulmate when I saw his soul (it looked like an Indian Chief) when I was 42.
• I learned energy work from my Lakota elder friend.
• I learned energy work from my Cherokee Chief mentor.
• Attending a Jin Shin Jyutsu course, I learned about David Hawkins book Power vs Force.
• I read David Hawkins' book and started to wonder what happens to the rest of us chickens who can't study with a guru in a cave in India?  Answer:  You find spiritual growth in whatever Now you have happening.
• Raising my son and looking for a healing for him, I found a healing for me.  He's perfect:)
• Cleaning up poop out of the carpet and off walls for the gazillionith time this past fall, I realized that "poop" washes off.
• Reading Martha Beck's books Expecting Adam and Finding Your Way in a Wild New World, I realized that I wasn't the only crazy out there!

So, that should catch you up on my spiritual meanderings to date.  Where has your spiritual quest taken you lately?